There and Back

It was slow today at work. Less than a dozen people here l’d say. And look at me I’m writing in the notepad app just before I leave early. Earlier today I went on reddit to look for a TFSA subreddit that my boss had mentioned. It motivated me to look for houses to buy. Looked at homes from $500,000 to $1.5 million. Dreaming. I learned something though like how my credit score is “very good” and if I had money for a down payment I would definitely be able to qualify for a mortgage. One problem. Don’t have that kind of money. So I looked into getting a loan for a down payment. Long story short my debt-to-income ratio would be too high to quality for a loan. So this is what being forty is like for me. That’s okay. I don’t feel bad. I actually feel pretty good. My wife is one year away from becoming a certified nurse and then she can be the bread winner and be my sugar mamma. And I’ve been writing more trying to be more vulnerable with the writing and not caring if people read it it’s more of an outlet for me damn I hope I stick with it.

My sister-in-law sent me some fun videos of my nephew sledding down a hill. It was glorious. I have to keep my mind local. Keep my mind on things that matter to me and not on things like Minnesota Child Care fraud.